My first post...here goes ...I am trying to have a good outlook about this Christmas. I have a tiny tree to put up each year,but this year I can't bring myself to put it up. I should not feel this depressed because gifts aren't what's important.We should not worry and fret about receiving gifts from each other,its not about that. I want to cry,but I can't. I think if I could cry then at least I would stop feeling sorry for us. I am in so much pain inside and out that I think I need to stop wishing for gifts and think about others. If I had money I would buy tons of gifts and presents for seniors and older couples like me and my husband,because I know what it feels like to be in their shoes. May God bless us and keep us in his safe loving arms this year and I pray he makes this pain that I feel inside go away for a while. Now, I feel wrong about writing this and feeling silly for letting others know that I am feeling this way. But, I feel sad right now,and yet I feel blessed all at the same time. I hope that everyone gets nice things this year for Christmas.
in response to ekikaseven...Thanks so much for the kind words! It is sad to know other people are going through the exact same thing that we are. But, yet its a comfort to get messages from someone like yourself. Thanks again!
